Hello friends, family, strangers, world wide web... where to even begin? I feel so (there is not even a word for it.) I want to blog and record my little family's life on this little blog in this little corner of the internet...but the only thing on my mind...I don't really want to blog about. My husband lost his job at the end of May and we put our house up for sale. Trying to sell your house is depressing. Chris and I have put so much work into this house. Our first house. All the fixing up is finally done but I feel like I can't enjoy it because it's not my house anymore. It is someone else's. What is the point of hanging up pictures or decorating if I am just going to have to take it all down again?
We have had  four open houses each one more depressing than the last. This selling your house business is an emotional roller coaster. Each Saturday I think, "This is the day. We just need one person to like our house enough to want to buy it. This is going to be the day." Then the minutes tick by and no one comes. Not.one.single.person. Sitting in my house all alone for three hours waiting and watching is the most depressing past time I can think of. But each time I tell myself, "This is going to be the day!" Why do I set myself up for such massive disappointment? Why? I don't know what else to do.
And don't even get me started on the job search. Everyone knows that is depressing. Chris is so much stronger than I am in this regard. At first we thought maybe he could do the Air Force/Army route and be an officer but when it came right down to it..he just couldn't do it. Then we thought maybe he should just go back to school. He decided that if he is going to go back to school he is going to do something this time that is guaranteed to make lots of money. Dentistry. But do we really want to go through 7 more years of school? I think not! Now, he is so dedicated to getting a job in landscape architecture. Which is great but I feel like there is nothing out there. He has more faith than I do, I guess. I just hate not knowing anything! Not knowing where we are going to live. Not knowing if we will sell our house. Not knowing if my husband will get a job? What job? Where? When? I know that I just need to trust in my Heavenly Father and know that all will work out in the end. I do know that I have a loving Heavenly Father who knows what is best for me and my family and I will just have to trust in that.